So I plucked up the courage to have dinner with my boyfriend after a whole day of contemplation. I made jacket potatoes, salad and tuna mayo – all things I felt happy to eat. I asked my boyfiend if he wanted any toast with his dinner (as I wanted a small slice too) to which […]
I’m so frustrated with my home life right now. My ED and depression are not being supported. I don’t feel comfortable enough in my own home anymore. Mum has began drinking again, so this puts me on edge anyway as I end up working myself even harder to keep on top of everything. She’s so […]
I saw this on Pinterest this morning and it got me thinking about how much I’ve been losing. Due to my job as a student veterinary nurse, I work in kg so I’ve been counting my weight loss in kg and g. lbs just seem like so much more to me, and this picture felt […]
with 4 more sleeps to go, I’m becoming anxious. I met my dad yesterday for ‘coffee’. I had tea with the tiniest splash of milk (I drink tea strong anyway) but seeing as black tea has been giving me dodgy bowel movements, I decided to go a step further from water. It was okay.. I […]
It’s been made clear this morning, that it is exactly 1 week.. 7 days.. until Christmas morning. Christmas day. Christmas evening. The day of love and gathering and gift-giving.. and.. eating. This time last year, the thought of all the food would make my mouth water.. I couldn’t wait. I would be preparing to make […]
the thought of food all day. it is overwhelming.