so I don’t know if this is all in my head or its all to do with my depression/ED etc. but I have these intense feelings that my boyfriend just isn’t attracted to me anymore.
1. I have a mental illness
2. I’m hard on him
3. He gets the bulk of my mental illness
4. I’m fat
5. I feel like sex is off the table more i.e. there are small excuses for us not to do things now. like.. he’s tired or a I can sense he is tired or his roommate will hear..
6. He doesn’t kiss me as much
7. He doesn’t say ‘I love you’ as much
8. He doesn’t want to hang out with me?
9. I put on lingerie and it’s just a waste of money
10. He rarely comments me
my list could go on but I don’t want it too. I love him. He is amazing. so why should I moan? Why am I like this? why can’t I control myself? I just feel stupid and desperate.