I don’t feel as though I’ve been posting as much recently but here’s a quick update.
I’ve been feeling a little hopeful today. I looked around at the girls I knew I was jealous of on the train and instead of feeling pure envy, I just hoped that I would be able to live up to their beauty and style pretty soon. I felt alright at work as was nursing two dogs and generally was busy until the end. I text my boyfriend to say that I’d like to go to Starbucks to grab a hot chocolate. I was even considering eating chicken stir-fry for dinner. I was absolutely fine getting into the car. He mentioned that we would be watching ‘Lets be Cops’ tonight. So I decided to google it. big mistake.
Seeing that the cast list included Nina Dobrev put me off all chance of consumption I had tonight. I’m jealous of her in the Vampire Diaries, but my boyfriend doesn’t watch that. The very though of watching this film with him and his flat mate immediately made me want to cry. She’s so perfect and sexy – how can I compete with that!?
I really do not want to sit there knowing that they will be gorping at her, and I’ll just be sitting there being all fat and ugly.
All positivity I had for tonight has instantly gone.